music keeps me tall

i like music. it puts peace in my heart. i like being around it, watching it, hearing it. it makes me not care for anything like lies, or rejection, even when staring it right in the face. i have learned to grow with each rejection, and thats allowed me to grow more that i want to admit. i dont have much left that you can take. every time i become aware of rejection, whether its to my face or in my back, i think about leaving. just...walking out. most times i do, sometimes i dont. i am glad music keeps me wanting to stay, if for nothing else.

starry night

tonights one of those nights where i take a walk outside
chances are im wandering, looking at the sky.
i felt cold, but a different cold, a good cold by my side
i slightly smiled and wondered what id be like to walk with someone tonight.
i look to the sky to give me my guide
because i know they know the better way.
Nighttimes my favorite because the moon shines on phoenix
and i'll never forget or let, my fallen ones go astray.
i am all i got, ive proven myself, what else do you want from me?
the meaning of life is be thankful everynight and to remember what it is you want to be.
as it goes for me, i know my dreams and have had them since day one
i wish i could explain why i am this way, but i am like no other one.

constant movement is when i most feel free.

east

i should go east. or should i stay west? i think i'll go east. then i'll visit the west. then back east.

clockwork

oh, no, ive done it again
i started walking and im on the mend.
shining stars and city lights
have never both been so dim.
in this mirror, it is clear
i am fragile and thin.
weakness, road, struggles, lines
are worn on my face from time to time.
however i am timeless, i wear no watch
cause in the end, it never ends.
this clockwork is topnotch

i think im dumb

nobody cares for me because their too busy caring about themselves.
i care about everyone, but myself.