my mouth is always closed

i was sitting on my couch
my mouth was closed
i though to myself
how lonely ive become
i went out for a drink
and saw a beautiful woman
i sat there for an hour
thinking of something beautiful to say
but my mouth remained closed
speechless, as usual
i gave it some time
too much time
and i ended up walking out
more alone than i felt before

nothings changed...

im gonna die alone
i promise

october

this is my second favorite month
october
finally a breeze
kids trick or treat
i am a new man now
yet, i dont feel any different
a little more tired, perhaps
a little more drained
but i remain looking forward to december
it is my favorite month
i can take another drive down hayden
listening to the kinison
its cold in december, and i like that
i can see the lights around me
and feel better about feeling so cold

both are pretty damn lonely..